Trust part 1

Hey guys. Yesterday was a yucky day. Meshach our little blue (brown) puppy has been really sick. He started throwing up Saturday and called the vet on Sunday but couldn't get an appointment until Tuesday at 1pm. He wouldn't eat and whenever he drank water it would come back up in a few moments. He started to be able to hold down water Sunday night so we thought he was getting better. Monday he was really bad off, he had what looked like blood in his pee and was really listless, so we called and they said we could come and wait to see if something came available (3-5 hour wait). So we went, thankfully it was only about an hour and a half. They tested both puppies and didn't really find anything but bacteria. So he gave him a shot and us some drops with vitamins and medicine. Once again we thought after the shot he would start to feel better. He still wouldn't eat. He could hold down water. This morning he was worse than ever. He hasn't eaten for a bit. He weighs 1 pound and a couple ounces and Shadrach (the "Blue Merle") is 2 pounds 7 ounces. He is looking skinny but it doesn't take much if you only weigh a pound. So when we got up this morning he was so weak he couldn't even stand up and when I stood him up he stumbled sideways and can't stay on his feet. We knew he had to eat so we watered down some canned puppy food and put it in a squeeze mustard bottle. We held his mouth open and squirted it in. He's still not doing very well. Shadrach on the other hand is a moose. He's pretty much fearless which isn't that smart with two grumpy old bachelor dogs around. He has even begun to eat the Boyz dry dog food.
As I had said earlier yesterday was a bad day but it was also a good day. We have begun to prepare ourselves that baby Meshach may not make it. We don't want him to go and it will be very sad if he does but yesterday I was able to give him completely to God. You may think he is just a dog but he has helped me have a small taste what it is like for a parent with a critically ill child. I know how quickly, he's only been with us a week, but I have fallen in love with him. Shadrach was kind of the one I bonded with right away when we visited them but Meshach stole my heart when I got to spend time with him. He is such a sweetheart. Gentle, cuddly and affectionate. I can't imagine what it is like for a family to lose a human baby. This sure doesn't compare to that but it made me think. In the process giving Meshach to God I had to come to grips with the fact that everyone in my life is only there by the grace of God. He is in charge and he knows best. I may not understand and I can even disagree but no matter what I trust Him. Yesterday was also the day I surrendered Paige to Him as well. We had a scare a few months ago. Paige had to undergo some tests and a procedure. I was a wreck. I don't think I have ever prayed so much. Everything turned out to be ok but it gave me some fear for the future. It really wasn't resolved until yesterday. Paige is God's as well. He knows I need her but He knows best. I find comfort in the passage

Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6 (NKJV)

Please keep Meshach in your prayers and us as well. Love ya'll, m

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